Moments of Mary


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There are tiny ways I see Mary- MY Mary- every day.

Today, it was in the vase of white lilies, the cluster of roses, and the fleur-de-lis I wear.

I find peace in these moments and relish them.



My First Labyrinth


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On Tuesday before Christmas, I was able to walk a labyrinth for the first time. It was a simple, painted on canvas labyrinth, but it was the lovely Chartres labyrinth, nonetheless. I also had my mother-in-spirit and my daughter with me. I couldn’t help but think of the Maiden/Mother/Crone that was represented while we were there.

In the Labyrinth Center

The labyrinth has been an immensely important symbol for me in the last year, and literally and figuratively became the path through which  my new faith found me. I say that faith is finding me because I was not looking for it, and now it is constantly revealing itself to me in the most amazing and beautiful ways.

It is a dream of mine that one day I will walk the stone labyrinth of Chartres Cathedral itself. I even hope to walk the labyrinth at Grace Cathedral in San Francisco sometime in the next year or two. But for now, I can at least walk it here at home, once a month. I have learned that God blesses us with exactly what we need, precisely when we need it, no less.


The Tree of Life


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The Tree of Life has been on my mind lately.

I took an Anatomy and Physiology course this semester, and while we were studying the brain and its functions, I learned of the Arbor Vitae, or “Tree of Life” structure of the cerebellum. The cerebellum plays an important role in motor function, most specifically the coordination of motor movements.

Arbor Vitae

The concept of the Tree of Life includes “as above, so below” indicating that the order of Earth should mimic the order of Heaven. Not social structures, but the interconnectedness of all parts, helping each other and needing each other to finish specific tasks.

Almost all cultures through history have some reference to something that resembles the Tree of Life. Assyrians, Egypt, China, India, Ireland, Turkey, and various cultures of Mesoamerica such as the Aztec and Maya all share this common concept.

Celtic Tree of Life

Coincidentally, at the same time we were learning about the Arbor Vitae in class, I came across this five-part documentary on YouTube about the sacred geometry in Chartres Cathedral. It is worth taking the time to view it here. The part that made me pay extra attention were the architectural drawings that highlight the symmetry of Chartres Cathedral form a Tree of Life. It’s just one of the many, many layers of meaning in this amazing cathedral. But it was what got me think all the more about this very old, very powerful symbol and how it connects our physiology to our spirituality and our purpose here on Earth.

So what am I getting at here? I think that there is a connection between the coordinator of our actions ( the cerebellum) and the Heavenly coordinator that has put us here to create a heaven on Earth. The Tree is yet another path and reminder that we are here, connected with everything and everyone, to fulfill a promise we made to God. Most importantly, we are directly connected to God.  We need to be thinking of what it is we are here in this life to do and how that has an impact on not just those immediately around us, but globally. I am most certainly aware that this is nothing original to me, and that it has been a concept alive and well for thousands of years. But it it so wonderful to rediscover it, meditate on it, and make a conscious effort to apply it as an active principle in my life for the new year.

In the Beginning


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I don’t think we can ever ignore or run away from what it is that God wants us to do with our lives.

I think we have a mission, a promise that is hard-wired into our spirit before we are born and not fulfilling that promise will tug at our subconscious until we being to pursue it. We have to have eyes to see and ears to hear the  reminders and the signs that point the way along our path.

Here I am, in the beginning of my journey. My mission is one of service to my fellow humans. I have A LOT of work to do, and I’m embracing it with an open mind, heart and spirit. I have just about finished my first semester of prerequisites in applying to an RN program. Five years ago I thought I was finished with school. I finished a BA and started a family, but knew it was just the beginning of…. something. I was at a loss of what to do next. Then I read The Source of Miracles by Kathleen McGowan. It served as a catalyst to move me toward what it is I need to do. I suppose it could cave been any number of things that awakened me- God made it abundantly clear that it was high time for me to get my butt in gear- but this book so clearly spelled it out for me that I couldn’t stand still.

I was being called to care for people. I was being called to do it in places I’ve never been before. Away from my comfort zone and with my family.

It will take me about two-and-a-half years to receive my RN. I hope to share my thoughts on service, faith and the gifts that God has given me with anyone who is interested. This is my journey.

My faith is finding me.